Pronounced "This Life's Tough"
I guess deep inside I’m still unrealistically hoping.
Sometimes I wonder if days like these I miss and think of you a lot more because you too, are thinking of me and missing me at those exact moments.
I couldn’t help but feel unbelivably emotional half way through. I imagined those people in Colorado, enjoying the same movie as I, doing the same as I, so innocently, when suddenly they were struck with tragedy.
Many of them, possibly all of them, due to trauma, will never get to see the end of this film. It saddens me, innocent lives lost.
I pray to God that this won’t be another acclaimed “psycho,” I hope Holmes suffers the pain. I’m sorry for his family, yes I do sympathize them, but not him.
R.I.P. to all those lost that night… 07/20/12
-That since the first day I met you, I can’t get you off my mind.
-When I catch you staring at me with that look in your eyes.
-The fact that you can do so much better than me.
-How each and every time we speak, I find out more reasons to like you.
-Time passes by way too fast when we’re hanging out.
-When we part ways, I get sad, knowing I won’t see you for a few days.
-I’m trying so hard to remain on the friendship side, but you will be my downfall.
*Haven’t felt this way in a so long. -__-
Over the last couple of months I’ve been going through what seems to be an absolute emotional roller coaster. One day I’m fine the next I’m not, every little thing seemed to upset me. I can’t tell you necessarily why. It felt as if I was viewing my life through a window or someone else’s eyes and not actually living it.
But through these past few weeks and much more emotional turmoil I have been come to the realization that all of this was a growing process. Everything that happened NEEDED to happen and had a reason for doing so. People came into my life so that I could forget people from my past and see the true colors of people who were in my present. People came in that I know will stay with me in the future. People came and went, basically. And I’m completely fine with that, because for ONCE in A REALLY LONG TIME, I CAN SAY I AM TRULY, TRULY, TRULY happy again.
It’s taken a while to get here and I will obviously still have my bad days, I’m human, I’ll still make mistakes, I’ll still cry, I’ll still rant and vent, but I feel as though not a lot more can surprise me at this point, not a lot more can hurt me as easily as things did in my past.
I wish this could’ve been a deeper post but I’m off to work in minutes so I can’t write forever. Hope all is well with anyone who has taken the time to read this! Much love!
P.S: RI Pride Fest/Weekend/Club was AMAZING! SO AMAZING! Woop!
Ugh. Problems of a shift leader.