Pronounced "This Life's Tough"
Celebrating Pride these past two weekends was amazing! So many different happenings and shenanigans! I wouldn’t change any of it.
Everything from carrying someone on my shoulders to having people ask me to take pictures with them to being so drunk I can’t remember half of my nights!
It felt great to be amongst people who feel the same! Ahh, last year was good but this year was unbelievably perfect!
Ha, let me get this straight… I post a status with the girl I’m dating and suddenly you’re texting me again? Lmao oh I hate fucking games.
Getting phone calls at 2 AM and hearing the other person tell you they “just needed to hear your voice…”
May not be the exact person I wish it was coming from, but maybe it’s time to give someone else a chance, time to start making myself and my heart vulnerable once more, time to find my happiness again.
I’ve been doing really really well lately. I can truly say that I’m so much better than I was a month or two ago. You barely come to mind now a days. I mean there are still random times where memories flash through my mind, but I’ve learned to smile at them and cherish what was.
I do however wonder if during these moments the reason you pop up is because you’re thinking of me?
You know how when you’re close to someone and you have a connection, sometimes you’ll call/text them and they’ll be like “I was just thinking of you!”
I wonder if that can still happen even when you no longer speak but the bond you had was unbelievably strong?
My friend said this to me last night mid conversation and it stuck with me.
It’s so true. We don’t realize it but it is.
It all makes so much more sense now, had we taken things slowly perhaps we would still be “us.” However, we rushed, we were too quick to express our love, our affection, our needs. God dammit we were practically living together after 2 months. We let our walls down too fast. Made plans too far ahead to grasp.
Women are much more mature than men, so when you have two of them in a relationship things are bound to speed up. Women know what they want.
But oftentimes, that’s the downfall of relationships.
So happy to know at least one of my parents is decent enough to understand and support me completely!
There comes a point where you have to walk away. Not because you want to, but because you NEED to. No matter how much you want to stay, try harder and fight harder. You will hurt, but eventually the pain fades. It’ll never go away completely, but you’ll learn how to deal with it. And at times you’ll have glimpses of the past, reminisce upon those memories and cherish them. Some days you’ll think and wonder what could’ve been. You’ll get the urge to seek after them because you dislike having unfinished business, but that’s what you’re intended to be. You were meant to walk into each other’s lives for a brief time, perhaps to learn and teach one another a few lessons.
Maybe it’s tough to understand why certain things happen, but within time you’ll begin to see, some people were never meant to work out. You’ll finally realize you did the right thing by leaving and not turning back.
My ex and I broke up because I wasn’t fond of how close she still was with her ex of like 2 years ago. Everyone called me crazy and they all said it was in my head. And they all said I initially fucked up by being “overly jealous of such a small thing.”
Today it was confirmed that they are back together.
I am itching to just scream as loud as I can and to post everywhere a big fat…
“I TOLD YOU ALL SO! I CALLED IT!!!!!!!”
But nope, I’ll just rant on here, to myself.
Fuck off, just when I thought I was okay.